Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
is it fear that keeps prevents halts you from loving me?
he was supposed to be my dream, my every dream answered
he was meant to answer the calls of my heart and
put aside my every hidden fear, live in my embrace, and caress me in his.
yet, as of late all that surrounds me is
so desperately I yearned for his touch, kiss, and love
so long I waited
too many nights spent creating tear-stained sheets consumed with bitterness
and in this now i fear that my love for him has diminished…
if this is true then what did I really have?
does love, can love
fade as quickly as the sounds those three words make as they escape one’s lips?
i once believed true, unquestioning love was only strengthened by distance
and reaffirmed by words unspoken
yet as these minutes metamorph into days all I ache for is to be loved
loved equally. loved passionately. loved physically.
his kisses no longer ellicit feelings of clouds and sunshine
i no longer smile on the inside when I hear his name
no longer catch my breath in that space between that space
i fear what this could mean
his fear is present
has left me falling
examine your truth: what are you afraid of?
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
It is as if the word ‘monogamy’ has been eradicated from our consciousness. Now, words such as polyamorous abound and people wholly dedicate themselves to multiple partners. Polyamory is the philosophical and emotional state of being in love or romantically involved with more than one person at a time. In layman’s terms, it is the loving and giving totally of one’s self to various partners without restriction or reservation. This lifestyle is meant to be freeing, unquestioning, and satisfying. More specifically, it is meant to answer the innate, dare I say animalistic, desire of all humans to be unrestrained and unbridled with their sexual appetite.
I cannot help but conjecture what Sigmund Freud would say about this Movement. Would he declare that humans are finally obeying the clandestine desires of their Id, or would he proclaim that we have perhaps gone too far in our quest for sexual freedom?
Is it truly our innate desires finally being heard and answered or is it a stronger pull for instant gratification on a more primal level? Followers of this movement claim that being free is what we all yearn for and they are the brave ones who have answered that call. My question is simply this: is this Free Love Movement truly the answer to our primal needs or is it, more sadly, a reaction to our deepest fear: commitment.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Peaceful. Stress-free. Love. Family. Friends. Warmth. Support. This is Accra, Ghana. This was home.
Five years ago David Dosoo immigrated to New York City with a dream on a promise from his uncle. He yearned for better educational opportunities and a realistic chance at pursuing his dream, his passion, his love – music.
Aware that he would miss his family and friends he still made the decision to journey by himself to this unknown land. Pushing his emotions aside David focused on achieving his goals by “making decisions that will not only benefit me, but others.” This method, however, did not last. “It became harder with time. After two years it was a different plateau. It hit me later.”
His dreams, fueled by anticipation and passion, soon came to a screeching halt. Promises of aid and support were broken. Already experiencing harsh loneliness and isolation from strangers and other ethnic groups who ostracized him, instead of going to school, David was home for two years. “Everything was at a standstill. That was a major, major breaking point for me. I was a teenager, you know, It’s like telling a five year old ‘Hey, listen, I’m going to get you a lollipop’ and then you don’t.”
This was not the image, the vision he painted for himself. Loneliness, grief, hurt and regret engulfed his mind.
“For the first two, three years every day I had a wet pillow. I’m dying. I’m going to die young. It was hard.” David could not share in the growth of siblings. He did not have many friends. Stereotypes, his accent, and nationality made him the target of merciless comments and judgments. He had no insurance, no social security, no comfort, no one to lean on or trust. “If anything happens to you right now, if you get sick, get hit by a car, you have no one.” This was his life.
Fortunately, there was a saving grace. After service one day at Love Gospel Assembly David had an encounter with Sylvia. One comment changed his situation. “ ‘My name is David, and when praise and worship was going on I kept having a feeling for you to be my mom.’ She didn’t say anything, and she just gave me the biggest hug ever.” Immediately, David found peace in the embrace of his godmother. They provided a home and the support he desperately desired. They kept him going. He found happiness.
Today, David cries less and believes things will work out. He has learned to persevere, experiences joy, and is accepting the growing process.
“My dream today is to accomplish my educational ambitions and my inborn talents in terms of music, and have a beautiful family. Nothing more. Nothing less.”
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I am from 11 Ritchie Street
Ste. Madeleine, West Indies, Trinbago
Red front steps
Curry chicken and dhal porie roti
I am from mosquito nets, Milo, Ovaltine, Klim
Shark & bake, Maracas Beach
I am from beaches, trees that
Reach the sky
Coconut trees & liming
Soca & calypso
I am from a place where people smile
Where people greet, where people
I am from sugar cane plantations
Mixed heritages of British, French, Dutch, Spanish
Workers, hard workers
Ancestors working hard
Sweat mixed with blood
Mixed with tears
Lashes after lashes after lashes
Cultures eradicated, erased,
I am from educated people
People working, always searching
Searching for more life
For more life