speechless

you and me could never be

for you are with she

and i am left without thee

without a love to call my own

left alone

it is dark

in this abyss.

although

i could make you scream my name

time and time and time

again

make you become a better person and

explore hidden possibilities

positions unending

love immeasurable

you repeatedly choose another

continuously

neglect all that i am all that i can do and all that we can be.

why?

you consciously choose to ignore the love that we can share

why?

the passion that can be ours?

i am perplexed.

confused.

dumbfounded and lost.

the last time we share the space, this space alone

you touched me in ways i never thought possible

and i made you moan in ways that you never did

in ways that she never could.

beyond the physicality of it all

i truly believed

truly felt sure

that you were meant to be with me

meant to hold me and trust me

as i hold you in my dreams

is it fear that keeps you away?

are you too engrossed in the various games these lesser ones present to you

for you to notice me?

are you too enthralled in the physical motions to take note of what happens in the between

of us two?

iwantyou.

ineedyou.

what else can i say?how else can i be?what else can i do?for you to see me to be with me take note of me...

when will we be?