reminisce

I'll always remember the time you touched my heart
No one has ever entered so deep so far

But then you pushed me to the limit made me to hurt
And I tried.
I try to forget you but I always remember the pain
Its you its all just you in me.
Don't want so much don't need you more

but I always remember

That I no longer receive your love.
Sad and empty, I cry. Desperate and alone, I cry.
Remember, I used to be just all yours...

I. Wanted.

Wanted you to be someone special,
wanted you to be someone pure
wanted you with understanding
wanted you to be more.
More
than a treat
more
than my heart
more
than something special...

I yearned for you to be all mine with no false securities

just wanted you to be you for me alone.

Irreplaceable feeling

Untraceable desires
Wanted pleasurable things with you
More than a dim lite fire.
You, me wanting, watching pausing waiting yearning earning needing each other.
Love.

goodbye, love

i know how to do it but i just don't love

the morning after walk of shames that leaves a shamed taste

on microscopic taste buds filled with your scent

a shamed taste on sweet lips guilty of truths never told of

hidden details behind a curtain to present

a present of mystery beneath the

ebb and flow

beneath the folds of this beautiful flower

budding with possibilities, capabilities of enthralling another

i grow towards the door every time i dream of the radiance of your sun

and envision dancing upon the embrace and deep currents

of your heart beating love rapid currents

fluttering our souls dear do we embark upon the seed of intention

with each passing flutter,

more real than the last,

more intoxicating to the touch,

more alive than before,

i cannot help but give in

how do we stop the start of yes when there isnt any no?

i know how to but i just dont love

walking away from your touch

miscarried

joy has transformed into sorrow

my tears and bitterness fall

staining my cheeks washing away my smile.

you have left me empty once again.

no longer will i dream of spending quiet moments with you

no longer will i yearn for our souls to meet on that kindred plane

where nothing else remains

where there is no remnant of the implausible of doubt nor shame

for i see your truth

and it is barren.

like winter trees

barren.

like the woman with the issue of blood

barren.

barren yet continually pushing out her love and hope for another who is willing to see past her faults

past the hidden mistakes and secrets

and look into the possibility of a new creation.

i reached for you, for your heart, for a touch

only to be shunned once again.

for you,

pain was endured

for you,

hours of contractions one after another

yet,

this love

miscarried.

now i lie alone, staring into space eternal...